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We Are Satellites by Sarah Pinsker

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dark hopeful inspiring mysterious sad fast-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? No

4.0

🔊🔊🔊🔊 (four stars as rated in all the noise in your mind that never ever stops)

When Val and Julie’s son David comes home from school asking for a Pilot, a new brain implant that improves brain function, they reluctantly agree. The doctors all assure them it’s safe and, with the new technology becoming commonplace, more kids at David’s school have them than do not. But with the many benefits of the Pilot come downsides as well. What of Sophie, David’s younger sister who has epilepsy and whose brain can not support the technology? What of Val who simply isn’t interested in getting one? Who is really behind the almost overnight success of this life changing science? And how do you fight back against something once it’s everywhere?

“We know Pilots don’t make anybody smarter. They don’t teach good study skills. They aren’t a replacement for teachers or books. If a kid is in tenth grade and reading on a third-grade level, he’s not going to magically start comprehending quantum physics or To the Lighthouse just because he has a Pilot . It’s a superficial fix. A bandage for a paper cut on a finger when there’s a sucking chest wound, too.”

This is my first Sarah Pinsker novel and it exceeded all of my expectations! The story is one part speculative sci-fi, one part family drama, and one part conspiracy! But what I really, really loved about this novel was how quickly it moved. Everything I knew about the story going into it literally occurs within the first 10 pages! The book just takes off and sustains this fast, engrossing pace throughout. I loved that especially considering the technical nature of the subject matter which could have become very easily bogged down.

The arcs of the four main characters were really lovely to read. I appreciate the way this family is illustrated for us and loved getting to see them grow and change. I want to say that Sophie was my favorite character, but when I think about it I don’t know that I could choose between them. They each make mistakes, but we are gifted so much insight into why they all chose to do what they do. And I really enjoyed that.

✨ Rep in this book: Queer MC’s, Neurodivergent MC

✨ Content warnings for this book: thoughts of suicide, drug use, addiction, mentions of war and battle, PTSD, medical stuff, gas-lighting

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Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo

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challenging emotional hopeful inspiring reflective sad medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? No

5.0

♟️♟️♟️♟️♟️ (five stars as rated in strategically placed chess pieces that will make you think they let you win)

It started like any other day. The weather was nice, the route was perfectly routine. And then flight AA1112 crashed into the ocean en route from New York to the Dominican Republic, killing everyone on board. When her father’s plane went down, Camino Rios was waiting to pick up her father from the airport in Santo Domingo. Yahaira Rios was going about her school day in NYC. In the wake of a tremendous tragedy that changed both of their lives, the last thing they expected to discover was the existence of each other.

“How can you lose an entire person, only to gain a part of them back in someone entirely new?”

What first must be said about this book is that it is an absolute delight to listen to. I am blown away by the talent that is Elizabeth Acevedo. Both her voice and style of writing generated such tangible imagery for me that I was literally move to tears at moments. This book is truly stunning on all counts. I love that Acevedo narrates her own work. I think it gives a different sort of depth to a novel when the author does that. Also, I can't find any other completed audio book projects by Melania-Luisa Marte but I certainly hope there are a few on the horizon because her portrayal of Yahaira was outstanding!

✨ Rep in this book: Dominican and Dominican-American MC's, Queer MC

✨ Content warnings for this book: plane crash, death of a parent, infidelity, sexual violence, medical stuff, thoughts of suicide, mentions of sexual trafficking

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A Pho Love Story by Loan Le

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funny hopeful lighthearted reflective fast-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? No

5.0

🖌️🖌️🖌️🖌️🖌️ (five stars as rated in Linh Mai’s paintbrushes)

Bảo Nguyen has known about Linh Mai for years. He knows she’s an artist, he knows she’s his same age, he knows she’s really pretty and he knows that, as the daughter of the family that opened a rival phở restaurant across the street from his family’s own phở restaurant, she is completely off limits. When a school project throws Linh and Bảo together the chemistry between them is undeniable. The couple starts to wonder if perhaps there isn’t more to their two families’ ongoing feud. And, if there is, what does it mean for Linh and Bảo’s budding romance?

"When I paint, there’s always a moment where I just know that I’m finally finished. The colors and textures come together to depict a feeling of rightness. Us here is that rightness.”

Reading this book was one of the most heart-fluttering, giggle-inducing, tear-jerking book experiences I’ve had yet in 2021. This story has everything I am looking for in a YA love story. The relationships are dynamic, the characters are compelling and an author that can make you laugh in the midst of palpable heartbreak is probably the definition of literary excellence. The characters are as fun as they are strong while also being beautifully vulnerable and complicated. Even at the most difficult moments, the parent-child relationships are written with compassion and empathy which really is so important. In the words of my friend Amanda (with whom I buddy read this book and who is half Vietnamese herself), “I wish more books like this existed so Asian kids can maybe resent their parents less if we speak about it and read about it in a loving way.” In A Phở Love Story Loan Le has managed to illustrate the immigrant experience – as well as that of second generation Asian American teenagers – sincerely and respectfully while still keeping the overall tone of the book lighthearted and profoundly hopeful. If that doesn’t deserve five stars then I honestly don’t know what does.

✨ Rep in this book: Vietnamese and Vietnamese-American MC’s and supporting characters

✨ Content warnings for this book: racism, generational trauma, death of a loved one, refugee experience, grief, drowning, mentions of war

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Hurricane Summer by Asha Bromfield

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challenging emotional hopeful inspiring sad tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

🦋🦋🦋🦋 (four stars as rated in a butterfly pendant on a little gold chain)


Tilla's relationship with her father is complicated. He spends every summer on his home island of Jamaica, leaving her, her mother and her sister, Mia, behind in Canada for long stretches of time. When she and Mia are sent to spend the summer with their dad, Tilla hopes the months together will help them all to repair the damage done by his absence. But when nasty rumors begin circulating about her on the island, and with a hurricane barreling toward them all, Tilla wonders if it isn't already too late to salvage her relationship with her dad or even to enjoy what's left of her summer in Jamaica.

“I can’t help it. I succumb to the spell of Jamaica as the fantasy of who my father is radiates in front of me. My heart instantly wraps around him, and I forget every time he has broken it.”

Hurricane Summer was such an experience. I am overwhelmed by how much nuance and imagery this single story holds. This book is proof that we can sometimes learn just as much from fiction as nonfiction. The mentions of colorism and colonialism in particular were so poignantly and elegantly done that I could have spent a whole novel on the ins and outs of that alone. That plot though... I could feel it developing from page one - like a storm building on the horizon.

I am a sucker for the trope of "protagonist is wronged but the wrongdoers get their comeuppance in the end." It is just so darn satisfying when someone stops letting people push them around and establishes their worth. I loved witnessing TIlla and Mia's growth and the development of their character arcs as a whole. The respective scenes in which they both finally said their piece really were everything I wanted them to be. Also, I love when an author writes realistically about young adult emotions. For all her faults, for all her bad decision making, Tilla is just a teenager trying to sort through the trauma of her father's abandonment in a country where no one (besides Andre) has her back. I was proud of the way she grew in the end and that she didn't hold "the island" itself accountable for what she'd gone through. She was wise enough to understand the how and why of everything that happened over the summer and I think that's a level of maturity she wouldn't have demonstrated at the start of the book.

"When they ask how I weathered the storm, I will tell them I did not. I was uprooted like the palm trees and shot down like the birds from the stormy skies. I was ravished like the zinc houses and devoured like the soil as it swallowed itself whole. I was ruined. I was disaster. I was dancing in the eye of God’s will. “Thank you,” I whisper as we ascend into the sky. How beautiful it was to be destroyed.”

✨ Rep in this book: Jamaican and Jamaican-Canadian cast of characters, own voices

✨ Content warnings for this book: drowning, death of a parent, death racism, racial slurs, domestic abuse, violence, vomiting, sexual assault, abortion, infidelity, sexual content

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Leave the World Behind by Rumaan Alam

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dark mysterious tense slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes

4.0

🦩🦩🦩🦩(four stars as rated in flamingos because.... um... flamingos?)


Something is happening. Something is happening. It was supposed to be relaxing a weekend away for Clay, Amanda and their two teenage children; a few days to unwind. And then, well, something happened. This other couple arrived. The power went out in the city. And that noise... What even was that? Are they safe where they are? Should they leave? Or should they wait until they know what's going on? What do you do when you have no idea what to do? You leave the world behind you.

“They had asked themselves questions when they decided to have children — do we have the money, do we have the space, do we have what it takes — but they didn’t ask what the world would be when their children grew.”

If you are into the kind of film where you don't see the monster until 2/3 of the way through, then have I got the book for you! Leave The World Behind is, in my opinion, the definition of a psychological thriller. What is most unsettling about this story isn't what it shows you but what it doesn't. There is very little action, but don't take that to mean that the book does not move. I genuinely could not put it down. The prose, the characters, the narration... it was all expertly done, in my opinion. I would highly recommend listening to this book. Rumaan Alam's words in Marin Ireland's voice was as beautiful as it was unsettling. This is the kind of story you keep thinking about for days afterward.

✨ Rep in this book: Black supporting characters, AOC

✨ Content warnings for this book: the mention of death, disease and unrest, vomit, medical stuff, cursing, racism, blood

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Folklorn by Angela Mi Young Hur

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challenging dark emotional hopeful inspiring mysterious reflective sad slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀 (five stars as rated in red ribbons trailing along behind your friend each time she visits)


Stationed at a research center on Antarctica, Elsa Park is confident that she’s finally put as much distance as she can between her and the generational trauma of her Korean-American family. When a “ghost” from her past reappears unexpectedly, Elsa must come to terms with her history – both myth and fact – whether she’s ready to or not.

“Please,” she said from her corner, “do not blame us for how our lives have turned out. Perhaps it’s not just the women in our family anyhow—our entire people have been telling the wrong stories, making a wretched mess of our history. As if anybody wants to be told that their ability to endure is their greatest virtue. No wonder we get invasions and occupations, war and asshole husbands. What kind of stories, I wonder, do the white countries tell of themselves?”

Folklorn is an exploration of diaspora, identity and self love at it’s most revolutionary. The experiences – both real and imagined – of the protagonist, Elsa, as well as her brother, Chris, her parents and particularly that of her friend, Oskar are all written, even at their worst with so much compassion. And while the pain was visceral at moments, it does ultimately lead to a place of healing that is deeply deserved by the characters and was profoundly satisfying for me as the reader. For me, of course, the best part of this book was getting to share it with my friends (for whom similar stories and experiences of the Asian diaspora are starkly underrepresented in publishing) relate and empathize with Folklorn so deeply. There really is no “reviewing” an experience like that.

Oskar was easily my favorite character (though the more I look back on the book I find myself really empathizing with Chris as well). Described by my friend Moon as the “hottest Korean in fiction as of now,” I was enamored with the acceptance and empathy that Oskar held for Elsa even when she could not find the will to feel it for herself. From a mental health standpoint, I hold deep appreciation for Oskar’s because of his insistence on Elsa’s value and attractiveness to him even when she was clearly not healthy. Love is not something to be withdrawn when we are at our worst. And we are not only worthy of it once we’ve found the strength – more often resources – to “fix ourselves.” The Park family exemplifies how much of a privilege the idea of “mental health” can truly be as well as the weight of generational trauma. This aspect of Elsa and Oskar’s arc together, in particular, really affected me personally.

✨ Rep in this book: East Asian cast of characters

✨ Content warnings for this book: drowning, death of a parent, racism, domestic abuse, violence

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A Blade So Black by L.L. McKinney

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adventurous emotional funny mysterious medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? No

4.0

💔💔💔💔 (four stars as rated in hearts so broken because THAT ENDING 😭)


It’s no easy job slaying demons by night while maintaining the facade of normal teenager by day. And for Alice, whose mother is rapidly losing patience with never knowing her daughter’s whereabouts, the balance between those dueling identities hangs precariously. When Alice’s demon-slaying mentor and friend, Hatta, is poisoned and it’s up to Alice to save him, she must venture into Wonderland, abandoning her life in “the real world” at a rather inopportune moment. Will she and her cast of sidekicks be able to save their friend before it’s too late? And who is the mysterious and dangerous Black Knight who always seems to be a step ahead of them?

“Knowledge is power, and the world is set against you knowing anything, so when someone’s trying to teach you something, pay attention.”

It is impossible to remove a book from its context so my review of this book is going to consist mostly of what I realized and experienced while read this book in April of 2021. First, this book was published in 2018 – before most white people – including myself – payed much (if any) mind to anti-racism work, so let’s just be honest about that. I only recently discovered this series and because of that you are now reading this review in 2021, after the murder of Breonna Taylor, after a global protest movement began in the summer of 2020 and – as of less than 24 hours ago and after almost a year of demonstrations – Derek Chauvin was found guilty on all counts for the murder of George Floyd.

Let’s now go back a bit to when, upon A Blade So Black’s initial release, author L.L. McKinney was deemed a mean, angry Black woman by a bunch of fragile white reviewers who decided that, since McKinney had the AUDACITY to call out white people on issues of privilege and race on twitter it was within their right to tank the reviews of her book on Goodreads. This is pretty standard behavior by white supremacists, to be honest. It literally happens to authors of color constantly. I can think of several instances off the top of my head, but that is for another blog post.

Being brand new to #booktwt (book twitter) and relatively new to reviewing, I only learned about this a few weeks ago, just in time for another white author to absolutely lose her shit on reviewers (for giving her a 4.5 rating??), compare her own cancellation to the holocaust and rape culture respectively and then DEMAND that GR take down the negative reviews she received because of her behavior. GR eventually – because of course they did – obliged. The double standard here is absolutely infuriating and really only emphasizes the dangerous power of white fragility.

No such courtesy has ever been extended to L.L. McKinney or any other author of color (to my knowledge) when white supremacists have tanked their reviews. The third book in the Nightmare-verse series, A Crown so Cursed – the ARCs for which haven’t even been released yet, are already receiving 1 star reviews from the people who couldn’t handle being called out on their ignorance in 2018. As usual, Goodreads (and Amazon by extension) is completely silent about this.

If you peruse the one star reviews for A Blade So Black as I have done, you will quickly realize that there is basically one reason for any and all low ratings: white readers were made uncomfortable that this book challenges their idea of privilege or race AND that a Black woman dared to speak up about it. Now that white people, and white feminists especially, have had their big “anti-racism awakening,” where are the apologies for McKinney? Where is the accountability from the black-square-posters and hashtag-i’m-listening-ers that flooded her reviews with hate and threats less than three years ago?

A primary plot point of A Blade So Black is how the death of a young Black girl named Breonne – who was shot and killed at a football game – has shaken the city of Atlanta. Breonne was in high school, Breonne was minding her own business, and Breonne was murdered anyway. In the wake of Breonne’s death, Alice struggles with the responsibility to protect a world that doesn’t do anything to take care of Black women like her and Breonne; a world that, on the contrary, targets, exploits and abuses them. This theme by McKinney is absolutely incredible! I was blown away. We don’t even need to look at the murder of Breonne and say that it is of course reminiscent of the murder of Breonna Taylor. Because the fact is that Black men and women are murdered by police with such frequency that it was just a matter of time before one inexcusable murder or another mirrored Breonne’s. How maddening and disgusting is that!?!? In Breonne we see Atatiana Jefferson, Sandra Bland and – as of mere hours after the Chauvin verdict – Ma’Khia Bryant, a 16 year old girl who was shot by police after calling them for help.

The reality is that Black women are never going to make racism palatable enough of a topic for white fragility – not even if they write it BEAUTIFULLY in an incredibly original and innovative fantasy series as McKinney has done. with A Blade So Black. The fact is that, knowing this, white reviewers like me (and you if you are white and reading this) need to be louder in calling out white supremacist behavior when we see it in publishing, from authors, on blogs, booktwt, bookstagram, etc. It can’t come down to the labor of AOCs to squash an issue perpetuated primarily by whiteness and white people. We need to actually do better and that means stepping tf up. It means elevating marginailized voices. And yes, it may mean missing out on an ARC here or there because when you take a stand against white supremacy it typically denies you some opportunities. Do it anyway. You’ll survive, POC might not.

Realistically, Chauvin’s murder conviction does very little – if anything – to combat systemic racism. The guilty verdict only came about because of the constant protests, the incessant social media campaigns, the civil unrest, the good trouble – the movement led almost entirely by Black women, btw – and because, of course, the murder of George Floyd was caught on camera. So when I say white people need to step it up, what I mean is don’t you dare tell me you’re tired. Don’t you dare tell me you’re scared. Don’t you dare take your foot off the gas. We are only getting started and we need you.

“Promise me you’ll be careful. I know you already are, just”—she lifted her hand from Alice’s knee, made a fist, then forced her fingers loose to pat her knee again, squeezing—“even when you’re careful, even when you play by the rules, it might not be enough. Gotta go the extra mile out here.”

✨ Rep in this book: Black Protagonist, own voices, queer side characters

✨ Content warnings for this book: death of a parent, violence, racism, police brutality, death, war and battle

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Band Sinister by KJ Charles

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funny hopeful lighthearted relaxing fast-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

🌳🌳🌳🌳(four stars as rated in trees that are better climbed with someone you care about)

Amanda Frisby has written a book, and a most scandalous one, at that. Having signed her novel simply as, "by a lady" and based it not-so-loosely on rumors concerning her infamous neighbor, Sir Philip Rockwood, was a risk that could be the ruin of Amanda (again) if it ever came to light. A least, so says her well-meaning older brother, Guy. Amanda, for her part, finds being a published author all too exciting (not to mention lucrative). But when Amanda suffers a near-fatal accident while trespassing on the expansive property of Sir Rockwood, putting her at the mercy of his generosity as well as his good humor, Guy forms a sort of friendship with Phillip and his illustrious crew. This new alliance stirs something in Guy. Amanda's book, he decides, is a matter best dealt with another day. As is the storm of local opinion waiting for their new band of friends just beyond the grounds of the Rockwood estate...

"There’s nothing brave about hiding from one’s desires. It takes far more courage to know yourself."

It is a truth universally acknowledged that K.J. Charles absolutely slays at writing quality relationships and sex. The key to this all being that she nails the concept of consent. Every. Single. Time. Asking permission is sexy AF and don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. Everything Charles' characters do to one another is done with trust and explicit assurances of pleasure. It's honestly incredible. It also completely tramples the notion that such things did not exist in the past. Because, believe it or not, there was consensual sex happening during the Regency Period. 🤯 I can not recommend Band Sinister to you highly enough if you want a story of love, friendship, growth and general human decency surrounding both monogamous and monogamous sex. I appreciated the respect with which Charles acknowledges the merits of both and the understanding with which they are met by the primary characters.

✨ Rep in this book: queer characters, Black supporting character, polyamory

✨ Content warnings for this book: homophobia, sexism, abandonment by a parent, infidelity, death of a parent, death of a sibling, life threatening injury, medical stuff, slavery, racism

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You've Reached Sam by Dustin Thao

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challenging emotional hopeful inspiring sad medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

☕☕☕☕(four stars as rated in cups of coffee from the shop where our love story began)

I was given a free review copy of this book by the publisher via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

It's been only a few days since Sam died just weeks before his high school graduation. Julie, his bereaved girlfriend, can not cope. Really, she refuses to cope. Beside herself with grief - and guilt surrounding the circumstances of his death - Julie retreats into herself in the days that following the accident that changed her life. She is determined to push it all away; to block everyone and everything out. That is until one night she breaks down and calls Sam's phone just to listen to his voicemail one last time. She knows she shouldn't. She knows it won't help her heal. And she knows she must be losing it when Sam picks up the phone.

“Who are you writing for again?" Mr. Lee asks, arching a brow. He asked me this before. I know the answer he wants to hear. I write for myself. I'm not sure what this really means, though. I can't help caring about what people think, especially about my writing. "We have too many voices inside our heads. You have to pick out the ones that mean something to you. What story do you want to tell?”

This book is a treasure from SO many different angles. The unhelpful and unwarranted manifestations of Julie's grief was especially palpable to me personally. We get to see all these layers of her mourning process - starting with denial and even bargaining - that ultimately lead her to a place of reluctant acceptance. When my dad died I remember my friend telling me, "It's ok if you grieve now or if you grive in six months. There really is no schedule and however you do it is okay." I certainly needed to hear that at the time because there is absolutely nothing graceful about bereavement. Loss is a messy process. Watching Julie sabotage herself with a deep and desperate sadness that bordered on frustrating for me as a reader, was honestly a brilliant move by Thao. You've Reached Sam will speak to anyone that has had to say goodbye to a loved one or, honestly, anyone that has watched someone else have to do the same. In my experience, it can be nearly as devastating to witness someone tearing them-self apart with anguish as it can be to experience it personally.

✨ Rep in this book: Multiple East Asian characters, gay supporting character

✨ Content warnings for this book: car accident, divorce, death of a partner, trauma, grief, racism, bullying

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