"I will write a review tomorrow and give it a rating. I just need to sit with it a while." I said on October 27th, 2022... I still can not wrap my head around this beautiful, messy, disgusting, astonishing piece of literature.

The writing is beautiful.
The story is horrifying.
This book made me want to throw up multiple times, yet I somehow only managed to shed ONE tear?! This book makes people suicidal, and yet somehow, I had a singular tear on my cheek.

I hate the book.
I love the book.
I want to burn the book.

Trigger warnings for literally everything you can ever imagine.
I do not recommend it to anyone, ever.
I recommend it to everyone.

Do not tab the moments you relate to Jude. You will hate your life more than you already do.
It makes you sick.
Do not do it.
You will need approximately 15 packs of blue tabs if you are tabbing sad moments.